Think about this... You may not realize it, but it's 100% true.
*PLEASE READ THIS WHOLE POST IT'S SO DAMN TRUE*

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.
2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you.
5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.
6. You mean the world to someone.
7. If not for you, someone may not be living.
8. You are special and unique.
9. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you.
10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.
11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likely turned your back on the world.
12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won't get it, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.
13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.
14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.
15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Its been awhile

So lets see the last 2-3 weeks have been kind of crazy.

1st off I need advice - What does it mean when you "Talking To" Someone and they are call you every other day it seems. Yes there busy, but So am I. I don't know if its because of the fact that I am in un-familiar territory and don't know how to deal with working off someone else's schedule. Usually I'm the busy one. Now I have met my match - Someone busier then me.

So I went to Miami last week with X, met up with some friends, Had mad fun.

Putting together the show for our final run as entertainer of the year at P House. (so much work and the routines have to be off the chain my name and group is on the line. We have to come with it and show why we held the title. A year has passed and we all have grown in our talent. What am I talking about, we are gonna make these niccas so shook, there not gonna now what to do. They might as well hand over the title to us for another year.

Gay Translation

Boys and Girls, next time someone shares with you the below quotes, check out what they really mean..... How true!

Statement:“He is SO stuck up!”
Gay Translation:“He’s better looking than everyone else.”

Statement:“He is SUCH an asshole!”
Gay Translation:“I asked him out once and he said no.”

Statement:“I don’t trust him.”
Gay Translation:“My boyfriend is attracted to him.”

Statement:“He’s a complete circuit QUEEN!”
Gay Translation:“He can afford to go to more parties than I can.”

Statement:“He’s into all kinds of weird shit.”
Gay Translation:“I came on his face once.”

Statement:“He does WAY too many drugs.”
Gay Translation:“He does more drugs than I do.”

Statement:“A dance? No thanks; I don’t really like this song.”
Gay Translation:“My pills haven’t kicked in, yet.”

Hurricane Wilma Weekend

Ok its been a minute since I've gotten the chance to write in here...

So this will sum up Oct 21-24th

Friday - What did I do on Friday hmmmmmmmmmmm? Still thinking hmmmmmmmm?
Oh I remember - Ok so I had practice from 6-8 then went home changed - out the door to go meet some co-workers at Jungle Jim for a Drink. Then X calls and tells me to meet him at pumpkins House so now I have to drive 35 minutes in the other direction to go meet him to come back to the same location I was because there was a party on that side of town.

Well we get to this party around 12am and the crowd is quit diverse, first off the VIP room consist of eleventeens (children between the age of 11 to 19), people are eating Arroz con Pollo at 12am and ricky martin is playing the background - Who Does That?????? Needless to say we left headed to Southern for our last 45 minutes (closing)... Then off to the after party and my girls Angelina where transi's, gay and straight peeps convert to the only melting pot. Wow 5am already I'm out of here....

Saturday - Show at Firestone - Ok after all the practices and dedication from all my dancers I decided to pull the show. For some strange reason Firestone was empty, there couldn't have been more then 150 people in that place. There was no way i was going to do our final show for the year to crowd less then 155 lol. U feel me. So my boss gives me endless amounts of drink tickets to compensate and I am So LIT, So LIT lol.

Ok here is the arrangement at Firestone - House downstairs and Hip Hop Up Stairs on Saturdays ----- Question: Does it make any sense to pay a $1,200 dj to play house for 10 people and 150.00 hip hop DJ for 140 people ????????? They need to switch rooms and convert there nights to pure Gay hip hop on Saturdays, they will draw a bigger crowd then what they think..... I'm working on that ....

Sunday - Wilma Is Coming - I recevied a call from my boss telling me that we do not have to attend work tomorrow - YAAAAAAAAAAAY - Short and brief - started drinking at 10pm stopped at 6am - stopped at some house parties and P house along the way. Saw my Boi Romeo from Ny - Shocked and was Re-introduced to my future husband that night - We will get to that later in the week. For right now, I'm single nothing has happened, I've known him for almost 10 years and he is perfect for me, I just never knew it until now ....

Quote

"You cannot make yourself feel something you do not feel,
but you can make yourself do right in spite of your feelings."
~Pearl S. Buck

Pimps and Ho's Party & Hair Salon Battle

Ok like I said before - this is an annual party that my cousins throw that are always funny and interesting to look at. Here are some pics. The 3 girls are my cousins and the 2 guys in the pic above - one is my cousin the other is the husband of one of the girls then there's me. I was not trying to go get into character like them - I went more as a spectator. lol

Ok so its now Sunday 10/16/2005

And I have practice at 1pm (finally we get to get a feel for the stage that we will be performing on in less then 7-8 hours. So we get to do 3 run throughs and that's it - its now about 1:45-2:00pm. I'm thinking we can go home relax for a minute (mind you I woke up with alcohol coming out of my pores and not even enough time to take a shower b4 going to practice)

So as I think I'm getting ready to leave we get dragged to this hotel room where there is about 40 people in a room capacity for 4. Hello, As I'm starting to have anxiety attacks because of the confinement and the heat and 40 girls with attitudes, tempers are flaring and the heat of the competition is now being felt. I told my Boi, yo watch out for me - I'm going home to freshen up. 45 minutes later I get a call "where are you" Thank god I was downstairs in the lobby just coming back from taking a shower and feeling a little better.

fast forward 15 salons, the place is pact - I danced my Azz off - We all did and we didn't even place 3rd. Wow - At this point, I was like - I'm going home it's 1am, I have to work tomorrow and by the way where's my pay for the night LOL. We get it later ???????????????????

Family and Friends

Ok so on Friday I get a call from my cousin saying that "Kelly Monaco- Long Time Friend" is on Orlando and I should meet up with them.

after the schedule I had on Friday - there was no way - but I tried and failed miserably at trying to attempt to add that on to my schedule that day.

after getting home and knocking out - woke up to a my phone ringing at 10am Saturday morning (my cousin) to go to the Animal Kingdom Lodge and meet up with Kelly for the day. (pic above - I know its dark - I should be getting the real images from her soon)

But after going to Epcot and Drinking around the World
(for all of you who have never done it, here's how it goes, Epcot has this huge lake that you walk around and they have these different restaurants and shops from "All Around The World". So Me of course at 1pm is starting to get my drink on with a beer from Morcco, then Japan, then Germany then I decide, I'm not feeling it and jump to shots from the remaining countries. Lets just say by the time 7pm came and were back at the hotel pool area - I was completely full "drunk".) I had a really good time and enjoyed the conversation and memories were shared, one of the best times I had in a really long time.

I say my goodbyes around 8:30pm - then its off to my Cousins Pimps and Ho's Party (It's and annual event they throw)

Can Anyone Relate

Just recently I'm faced with trust issues AGAIN, I blame my Ex (you know who you are)
unfortunately I have tried to deal with it the best way I know how, and you would think 3 years
would heal all wounds. Tell that line to my heart, it plays evil tricks with your emotions.

So anyway, there's this song out now by one of my favorite artist, I actually heard it on her CD before it became popular, but now that the video is all over the place and the song is on the radio, I come face to face with my past basically everyday. The funny thing is, I talk to my ex now (its taken almost 2 and 1/2 years for us to have a simple conversation without yelling at each other over past issues.) So I can honestly say, I have forgiven him but I will never forget. That's where the song comes in --> here it is (I discussed this earliar with one of my friends and he said We’re just the “Diary of madd, gay, Hispanic men” lol!)

Because Of You - Kelly Clarkson

Lyrics

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you

uffff Is it 8am already

Ok, I'm dead azz tired - yesterday was one of my many full days.
9-5 Work

7:30-9 Dance Class

9-10 Practice for an Upcoming Hairshow that my girl Christy (Magic Dancer) hooked me and my boi up to dance with them representing Image' Salon. Should be interesting - I never been to one (maybe it will be like the movie Hair Show with Monique)

10-11 - Watched making of the band (Aubrey is my Girl) and got dressed to meet up with my boi X for some drinks at Southerns (for all you non locals - Souther Nights) LoL

Got home around 3am - couldn't sleep for sh!t. Tossed and turned and now its 8am

I have bags under my eyes, I'm stuck here all day - Asked about leaving early - that's a no go - my supervisor is taking a half day so I have to stay.. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....

Then I can try to take a 2 hour nap when I get home - then its off to practice at 7pm, I'll be late (7:30) for the hair show routine.

Sometimes this is a vicious cycle that can be exhausting... There are days when I just want to say the hell with dancing, I don't have enough time. Its hard keeping up with these young cats out here. I'm 32, so I know this is not going to be my career (that's why I'm a Loan Officer during the day - that pays the bills) but I know I will miss it, So I'm not getting any younger. Therefore I'll bite my tongue and do this for as long as I can - I don't foresee it being years.. Maybe one more LOL

Wow - Responses

Ok this is my boi (we will call him X)

I asked for permission to post his pic and this was his reply - "U can do that.. I don't care.. BUT, I need a good pic up there! Hey wait a minute. How about you cut this one out" (Pic to the left)

Already their worried about what may appear on here for fear of embarrassmentt - LOL - No j/k


One of my girls is like - "that's fine, your in my book that I'm writing - Confessions of a Former Fag Hag"

That should be interesting - I will be out of the country when that drops ......... LMAO

Welcome

This will be a glimpse in the day and life of me and all the people I encounter.

Almost like a daily journal, I will post weekly, if not daily notes or happenings of previous days events or situations or just something I thought was interesting enough to share with all of you.

Brief Discript of Me

Name - Banjee for now (this is the internet - C'mon now)
PR, 32, from The Bronx, Now living in O-Town.
Pic - above

Work Ethics

So I work I full time job during the day - damn I hate 9-5 jobs - Not a morning person

Part Time - Hip Hop Choreographer

Part, Part Time - Creator and choreographer for Da Kidz Above
Perform at Club Firestone (check out the website link on the page) and various places here in Orlando - Trying to Branch out - lol (can we get booked in NY or No') - X u know what the No' is for.....

Titles Held - Entertainer of the Year 2005 - P House
Universal Dance Idols - 2004 - Universal Studios